Dropped at 7:45
9:00 mild euphoria setting in
I Went to lecture hall skipping the mass. I felt amazing because I literally felt in my own world. There was nobody else with me. This was kinda lonely. I wanted Julia to be there with me too. It would have been fun... I was feeling a bit bloated and uncomfortable but the face in the ceiling looked alright so I was too
9:50 back to class feeling…. Out of it still in my own world the teachers playing led zeppelin and it's so amazing. I've never heard such great music. My perception of what I want is … a mixed bag of salted nuts. And what I mean by that is I'm cold but I'm shivering sort of deal. I know that's a bad symptom but I don't see a problem as because it's not to severe. I'm a bit over heated. And my throats a bit dry. So I went and got chocolate milk.
I'm thinking the effects are all there. It feels like I'm peaking now but I know there's more. It's more intense than last time I did it. Keeping my composure in the public forum though does seem quite simple still, and not hard or complex in the least. Mmm chocolate milk
I feel a bit sick bit it passes. I did before to I would feel great pressure like I had to pass gas, which I probably do. But it passes and feels like this great stress and mild pain has been lifted. It feels good.
10:23. I'm feeling quite comfortable now. I don't have that "you ate too much and feel bloated and your pats are tight" feeling. I'm moving. A lot. This music is so awesome. And its good he's playing it because if it was fasted more psychedelic electronic music I probably would have felt more hyper than I am now. Writings pretty easy too. I know where the letters are but my fingers keep moving in front of my eyes. They know I'm talking about them too. So they're typing slower. I have to think and write about typing while typing. That's really complicated. Its
10:29 now. Dreading 2nd period because has so dull and argh. No music deal. I'm hoping to show nick what I've written in second thought so it's all good. It's good he's in that class id be so bored and there be no GOOD company. I feel very appreciative. Maybe it's the chemicals : P I don't like the red of the spelling error deal. My leg keeps shaking rhythmically its enjoyable. And I keep typing. Stop… I should give nick the last cookie. It would be a kind gesture of friendship.
Every time I stop I think of something to write.. Like I know why it's hitting more hard. I didn't eat yet. I'm gonna have a cookie. They taste bad. Bleh. Mmm soft spot ^_^ lol it feels like my minds been absorbed into the page and I'm telling myself what to do by typing. Owe… I cracked my neck…lol making fun of Kyle is… fun. I'm think I should read this for English. I should study myself for English. I'd have a lot to write.
10:37 stop….. COOKIE!!!!
11:21- I'm talking to nick and I don't feel as euphoric I think I've plateau
12:17 - hallucinations have succeeded my energy level is fluctuating a lot. I fell alright but a few minutes ago just stopped my leg from a 20 minute shake. But feelings on immense happiness still remain. I feel god like I've been flushed of any bad feelings. It's amazing. I've been drawing for the class it's quite intricate.
12:41 I think I've peaked already and I'm on a steady decline from my euphoric experience. I will save and document the picture I've drawn that was fun. But in the future I should consider the pros and cons and random facts.
It should be at night because closed eye hallucinations are more intense when it's darker outside your eyelids, and maybe with Julia. The feelings of happiness within myself couldn't shadow the fact that I still wanted to be with her. Doing it at school should be more planned out next time because I need some time of isolation to "let loose" and being in class prevents that immensely. Also did not like the restriction of the required work and having to stay where I was. So being in a freer environment will be a must.
